Paper or Plastic? ;)

So I am still waiting to hear about the job here at ACU-it has been 3 weeks since my interview, but apparantely from what I have been told this week I am still in the running. I have also been told about 2 other completely different (and adventuresome) opportunities: The first one would be going to Uganda for a year and helping teach the missionary kids there while working with the church, and the other one would be teaching at a school in American Samoa while also working with the church there, but I would have to have a teaching certificate for that-which I have not obtained yet. They are all very exciting opportunities-so I am still waiting to see where God leads me. Of course, the next option is always finding a job in Lubbock and moving back there.

I have had SO many mixed emotions about it ALL-and waiting has been so incredibly hard-and I will be the first to admit that!! I know I miss Lubbock terribly and would LOVE to move back there, I know that this job at ACU would be wonderful and a great opportunity to do ministry and finish my degree, and I also know going somewhere else that I CAN go to right now while I am single and have the opportunities would be wonderful, too. So-again, I am trying to discern God's will for my life and where He can use me best-even though I am come to realize that He is not always going to guide me to THAT place-sometimes I have to make that decision and then He WILL use me right there wherever I am.

I don't think I ever thought when I graduated it would be THIS incredibly hard to find a job-and I am not just talking about jobs in ministry-sure I know it would be hard to find a job as a single female in the C of C-I was fully aware of that, but maybe not prepared-or maybe I was just being too optimistic. I mean-it has been hard to find ANY kind of job either remotely related to ministry or not. And maybe I have not been looking in the right places or open enough to see opportunities when they come-but I sure have been trying. There are some things that I want-but they are not always what God wants, and I really want to do His will-even though it IS hard-it is rewarding!! What an incredible process this has all been-I know I am stronger, though-and I know it is not over, but I am strong through my relationship with Christ, and don't have a clue what I would do without that-even though sometimes the problem is I don't understand what He is doing and I question Him-He is faithful, and I am thankful for that.

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. ~Psalm 27:14