Eye on the horizon...

I will have so many things I want to write about on here, and then when I actually sit down to write something-I cannot remember much of it.

Job hunting is still ongoing-not much more to say about that. I am feeling better, and hope and pray that this medicine has done the trick! This last round really took all of my energy, and I was beginning to wonder if I would ever recover! I had a really awesome weekend-it was Master Follies/Homecoming weekend at LCU, and although I was pretty nonchalant and not too excited going into it-I am really thankful I went. Follies was great and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I loved catching up with a lot of friends over the weekend, and was reminded once again what a special place LCU is, and how thankful I am that I ended up there and was blessed by the small, Christian environment that I can still come back to. I looked around on Saturday night and was thinking while I do not miss being in college, I miss the environment and the fellowship-there is just nothing like it. I am thankful for the friendships and relationships that were created over those 5 (yes, I was on the 5-year plan!) years-and the fact that many of them continue today.

I had an awesome conversation with my good friend, James (who I do not see near enough of) on Sunday-he can always help me see or think of things I have not thought of before, and has been an encouraging presence in my life. We have both been through our share of wilderness time on our career path search and finding our place in this world, and I am so thankful for his insight. He has a pretty amazing testimony of how he arrived to what he is doing today. He dreamed of a place where people could come to have their hearts restored, and through a series of encounters with various people-his dream came to fruition, and he now runs an awesome place in Lubbock called Spirit ranch whose goal is to draw the people that come closer to their Creator and create life changing experiences for them. It is pretty amazing, and even cooler to see how God brought it together and continues to bless it.

Anyway, I am really glad I called him because I was very encouraged by our conversation, and then later we went up to Vandelia to help with one of their outreach programs, and we ended up talking till midnight with two other awesome women of God who are also trying to work in the kingdom of God right where they are. It was a blessed night, and I know without a doubt it was God ordained. They spoke and prayed words over me, and it was a great time of fellowship. We were also talking about my word "thankful" for the year, and how it has really helped me keep things in perspective during this difficult time. I am thankful my word is "thankful"! :)

I am trying my best to focus on the positive and keep pressing forward, because I know if I do not I will really lose it! Honestly, it has just gotten hard to pray-I stepped on a huge leap of faith, and I feel like it is greatly diminished. It has just been difficult to know which path to take, but knowing all along that God can use me for His kingdom anywhere, and it is important I remember that. Ministry comes in many many forms-even the most unconventional ones. There are some days I feel like I see no end, and other days I feel like it is just on the horizon-I just need to keep a lookout. I like those days better :)

"Let us acknowledge the Lord; let us press on to acknowledge Him. As surely as the sun rises, He will appear; He will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth." ~Hosea 6:3