Oh my word...I have strep...AGAIN!! This is the 3rd time within a month-I am on my third round of antibiotics, and this time we went for the big guns-penicillin!! They took a strep test today, and the nurse said it would normally take 4 minutes-I don't think it even took a minute-she said it lit up immediately...surprise, surprise!! What in the world is going on? I just want to yank my tonsils out!! ;)
Ok, so I have been very frustrated, confused, and upset over the last few weeks-as the job hunt has continued without any luck, it has been 6 LONG months since I began job searching, and now being sick for the third time. I keep wondering if I am doing something wrong, looking in the wrong places, or if I am being punished for something (I don't know what!) but I feel like I am. I am just dumbfounded, and I continue to pray that I will look for opportunities and make the right decisions.
At the same time, I realize that my word for this year is thankful, and have been trying to dwell on that when I get down. Having said that, I am thankful that I have family and friends I can rely on and visit who will welcome me and encourage me along the way. I am glad I have family that is willing to help me go to the doctor and get what I need-three times over. How is it that I rarely get sick, and when I don't have insurance I end up having to go to the doctor so often?! Ok, no we are on the thankful train...I am thankful for having an education, even though it sometimes seems right now like it is not getting me far and I may have to go back for more-I am thankful I was given the opportunity-when I know many will never have the chance. I am thankful for food, places I can call home, and people I can call family-whether they are blood or not. I have been blessed beyond my comprehension, and I know it. God has provided all along the way-even when I may not realize it or cannot see it.
That does not mean that it has not been easy, which we were never assured it would be. I just wonder if I will ever achieve what I really desire in my life. I have tried so hard to be faithful to God's call, and yet sometimes that seems futile. People keep telling me that He has something special planned, but I am having a hard time believing it. However, I am trying to relish in His Word and listen for Him. Here is the verse that encouraged me this week:
"The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with his love, He will rejoice over you with singing" ~Zephaniah 3:17
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I am so sorry to hear you are sick again Kat. Three times! What are the odds?! Sounds like you need a month to just hide out and heal. Stress will just wreak havoc on your immune system. I will hold you up in prayer the next week and we'll let God work on the strep and the stress.
Someone gave me a good thought that I think is appropriate for this occasion. Pray for pains conversion instead of pains removal. You'll be better of in the end.
I want to thank you for your prayers for me. I can feel the strength and encouragement already. I will learn more about my EEG this next week. Thank you so much for your encouraging works on Mike Cope's blog. You Kathy are making a difference in the Kingdom. I have added your blog to my favorites and would like to welcome you to visit mine blog anytime. You are such a source of strength. Thank you for all you do.
In Him,
Kinney Mabry
Aka,
Preacherman
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